FEB 17, 19 .. AH THE SONGS-INSIDE-MY-MIND

I have always been interested in / fascinated by railway trains. There was / there still is  a major railway line up at / down at the end of the street where I grew up in Royal Oak (Detroit ) Michigan. So from my earliest days of life exist a plethora of memories of railway trains rolling past my neighborhood. I can vividly remember the fascinating sound of the first diesel locomotive powered train that came past in the early 1940’s.

My father walked to the railway stop (no longer there ) at the end of my street for many MANY years (decades ) to catch his commuter train into downtown Detroit and return home after his day’s work. I used to walk up there to meet him as he returned home at day’s end especially on Saturday afternoons when he worked 5-1/2 days a week during the WWII years (1941-1945 ).

Arlo Guthrie ..

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Arlo_Guthrie

Sang and made famous a railway song written in 1971 by Steve Goodman titled : The City of New Orleans.

Riding on the city of New Orleans
Illinois Central, Monday morning rail
Fifteen cars and fifteen restless riders
Three conductors and twenty-five sacks of mail
All along the southbound odyssey
The train pulled out at Kankakee
And rolls along past houses, farms and fields
Passin’ trains that have no names
And freight yards full of old black men
And the graveyards of the rusted automobiles

Good morning America how are you?
Don’t you know me I’m your native son
I’m the train they call The City of New Orleans
I’ll be gone five hundred miles when the day is done

Dealin’ cards games with the old men in the club car
Penny a point ain’t no one keepin’ score

Above is-the-line I’m after ..

Dealin’ cards games with the old men in the club car
Penny a point ain’t no one keepin’ score

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Mental Illness (mine ) and the challenges (OH YES indeed.. ) along with the many blessings thereof, are an ongoing part of my life. IF I’ve done anything, IF I’ve accomplished anything noteworthy in my life (I could write a book about them ) I attribute them to the part of me I’ll call mildly* obsessive-compulsive.

 *   Mild because I can successfully own-it, look-at-it, think about it and then evaluate it as I am NOW DOING. Just doing what I am NOW DOING may be just a tad OCD. 

When I get-going, once I get-going, IF I get-going, I can and I do move mountains.

Today is Sunday the 17th of February 2019.

Going back to October 14th 2018, 127 days, on just six (6) days I’ve not published a post here on dot.net.

Yesterday, February the 16th, I did not publish a post here.

Now to the song..

Dealin’ cards games with the old men in the club car
Penny a point ain’t no one keepin’ score

In this immense universe, and it is truly immense, there is not one single person (Penny a point ain’t no one keepin’ score ) who is keeping score as to my publishing posts here on dot.net or my other web sites.

So why all of the work here?

This entire post is an exercise as to the below question..

Do I owe anyone an explanation as to why I missed publishing a post yesterday?

(expletive) NO I don’t owe anyone an explanation as to why I missed a post yesterday!

Is this exercise (this 10th step inventory ) just me marching to the tune of some obsessive-compulsive urge?

No I don’t think that it is.

There have been some days that I have actually thought about NOT writing a post just because I don’t want to feel that I am being driven to maintain some ‘bench mark of my own making’ that I must not miss a day.

(We have found the enemy.! The enemy is in my own mind! ).

Computer Frustrations :

Why did I not write and publish a post yesterday, Saturday the 16th of February?

I did not write and I did not publish a post yesterday, Saturday the 16th of February, for one reason and for one reason alone.

I couldn’t do it.

I got up, I turned on my laptop, I signed in, and .. and .. and ??

(expletive) Come Hell OR High Water I could NOT access my own website here on the internet. I did everything I knew to do and could not get access to it.

babakaps.net is not available

Probably my provider was updating (on a weekend) its system and was simply off-line for a few hours and did not opt to advise me of this fact.

So (expletive) what Captain?

Exactly my dear and my precious Committee within my own mind.

(We have found the enemy.! The enemy is in my own mind! ).

Smiling. Yes I AM smiling.

We (in the rooms ) have a little prayer that has one line that we pray to God to help us with :

“Relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better do thy will.”

We (in the rooms ) have a little saying :

To make God laugh tell God your plans  for the day.

And?

I just went back and added another subtitle : Delete before reading.

MY PLAN FOR YESTERDAY  was to share with all of you, or with just one of you, some thoughts and some feelings about yesterday being the beginning of my fifth (5th) month of this amazing adventure I am on now with Patti.

Oh God of Abraham, Creator of Heaven and Earth..

I pray that you now relieve me of the bondage of self so that I may be of assistance to others.

Over and out..

/sign me/ Your Little Captain

• ← FEB 15, 19 .. FOUR MONTHS COMPLETED ON THIS TRIP AND MONTH FIVE IS HERE
• FEB 18, 19 .. TOMORROW WE MOVE TO A HOTEL AT INCHEON INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT →