SEP 11, 15 .. SEPTEMBER 11, 2011 .. ALSO KNOWN AS 9 / 11 ..

Julia Cameron wrote the following thoughts on Page 223 of her amazing book .. ‘The Right To Write’ .. Thank You once again Brad 49885 for the gift to me of her book ..

“When we start to write, we prime the pump and the flow of ideas begins to move. It is the act of writing that calls ideas forth, not ideas that call forward writing.”

TRUST ME .. PATTI KNOWS .. WHEN I SAT DOWN HERE AT THE KEYBOARD I INTENDED TO WRITE SOMETHING ENTIRELY DIFFERENT THAN WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO READ.

Don’t say that I didn’t warn you. IF you have read the categories above I hope you saw the one titled .. TEXT WRITING ONLY .. and all of the others ..

In my humble opinion .. Many if not most Americans are thinking back to this date in history .. September 11, 2001 .. With a lot of feelings about the events on this date as well as those that have followed 9 / 11 ..

I got to thinking about God and about God’s Will For Me and off I went wandering into the streets of my mind. Oddly enough it took me right to my wonderful apartment here in Ulaanbaatar Mongolia. I am so happy and so content to be right here doing what I am doing. So does this mean it is God’s Will For Me to be here?

HERE ARE TWO SHORT .. WHAT I BELIEVE ABOUT GOD .. CONCEPTS ..

1. I EARNESTLY AND  I STRONGLY BELIEVE .. BASED UPON MY OWN ACTUAL LIFE EXPERIENCE ..  THAT IF I AM WHERE GOD WANTS ME TO BE AND I AM DOING WHAT GOD WANTS ME TO BE  DOING THEN ..

I SEEM TO BE ABSOLUTELY THRILLED TO BE WHERE I AM AND TO BE DOING WHAT I AM DOING!!

“HUM-M-M-M .. MY LITTLE CAPTAIN SEEMS TO LIKE TO TRAVEL AROUND AND VISIT NEW AND DIFFERENT PLACES. I HAVE GIVEN HIM THE MONEY HIS MISSION WILL REQUIRE AND I HAVE EQUIPPED HIM WITH A MESSAGE TO CARRY.  NOW ALL I HAVE TO DO IS GENTLY GUIDE HIM.”  .. “SOMETIMES HE NEEDS MORE GUIDANCE THAN OTHER TIMES.” 

2. I BELIEVE THAT GOD DOES NOT HIT US UP BESIDE OUR HEADS WITH A BRICK-BAT. I MYSELF HAVE TO BE FINELY TUNED TO THE SPIRITUAL VIBRATIONS OF THE UNIVERSE (MEDITATION) TO HEAR THE INCOMING MESSAGES. I ALSO HAVE THIS FEELING I CANNOT DESCRIBE .. I JUST GO WITH THE VIBRATIONS I GET ..

TODAY .. FRIDAY SEPTEMBER THE 11th .. 9 / 11 .. A DAY OF INFAMY IN THE UNITED STATES .. I DID A COMPLETE RE-WRITE OF MY POST .. JUL 20, 15 (Post 2) .. MY APARTMENT IN ULAANBAATAR MONGOLIA ..  BECAUSE MANY THINGS SUDDENLY CAME SHARPLY-INTO-FOCUS FOR ME. THE JUL 20th POST WENT FROM BEING JUST A BRIEF PHOTO-SHOOT OF MY APARTMENT ON MY FOURTH DAY IN MONGOLIA TO WANTING TO SHARE WITH YOU PRECISELY HOW I SEE GOD WORKING IN MY LIFE! ON JULY THE 20th THERE WAS A GREAT DEAL OF SPIRITUAL SATISFACTION AHEAD OF ME THAT WAS YET TO BE FULLY REVEALED WHEN I SUDDENLY FOUND MYSELF IN A MAGNIFICENT APARTMENT HERE IN MONGOLIA. 

SOME BELIEVE .. MANY DO NOT BELIEVE .. SOME BELIEVE GOD IS INVOLVED IN THEIR LIFE .. MANY EITHER DO-NOT-THINK TOO DEEPLY ABOUT GOD OR LIFE OR SIMPLY BELIEVE THAT THINGS JUST HAPPEN.

I AM HERE TO TELL YOU THAT I HAVE LIVED AN AMAZING LIFE OF THINGS-JUST-HAPPENING-TO-ME!  IN JUNE 1998 A COMPLETE STRANGER .. A DRIFTER PASSING (IT SEEMED AT THE TIME TO ME) AIMLESSLY THROUGH MANLEY HOT SPRINGS ALASKA TOLD ME .. AFTER SPENDING NINE DAYS WITH ME OUT IN THE WILDERNESS OF INTERIOR ALASKA .. DEBATING LIFE’S MEANING ..

“CAP! GOD IS .. AND HAS BEEN .. IN YOUR LIFE BECAUSE YOU INVITE GOD INTO YOUR LIFE ON A DAILY BASIS. AT SOME POINT IN ONE’S LIFE .. GOD BEING POLITE .. GOD WILL NOT JUST COME INTO ONE’S LIFE WITHOUT AN INVITATION.”

THIS DRIFTER GOT UP AND LEFT MY CABIN LITERALLY-ON-THE-SPOT .. AFTER NINE DAYS OF ABSOLUTELY FIERCE DEBATE  BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN US .. HE HAD SUDDENLY GIVEN TO ME THIS MOST PROFOUND .. ONE OF THE MOST PROFOUND OF MY ENTIRE LIFE .. MESSAGE. I HAVE NO IDEA OF HIS NAME AND I HAVE NEVER AGAIN SEEN NOR HEARD FROM OR OF HIM .. GONE OUT OF MY LIFE FOREVER ..

GO AHEAD CAPTAIN AND TELL THEM MORE. ANOTHER DRIFTER .. MICHAEL SILKA .. PASSING THROUGH THE SAME MANLEY HOT SPRINGS ALASKA IN MID-MAY OF 1984 SHOT DEAD SOME SIX PEOPLE INCLUDING JOYCE KLEIN WHO WAS PREGNANT ALONG WITH HER HUSBAND AND TWO-YEAR-OLD SON. SO CAPTAIN TAKE-YOUR-GOD AND STUFF-IT! HADN’T EACH OF THEM INVITED GOD INTO THEIR LIVES ON MAY THE 17th 1984 CAPTAIN?  

I AM NOT ABLE TO ANSWER YOU .. I HAVE NO CLUE .. DON’T COME TO ME FOR ANSWERS TO THE MISERY THAT LIFE CAN BESTOW AND OFTEN DOES WITH SEEMING RANDOMNESS UPON ANY AND UPON ALL OF US.

WHAT DO I KNOW?  

1.  I KNOW .. I DON’T KNOW MUCH AT ALL. THE MORE I KNOW .. THE MORE I KNOW THAT I KNOW VERY LITTLE.

AS I STRUGGLE SEEKING MY OWN ANSWERS I REALIZE THAT I HAVE FEW IF ANY ANSWERS FOR YOU. I FEEL TRULY BLESSED AS I ENTER MY EIGHTIETH ( 80th ) YEAR OF LIFE. I KNOW THAT IN THE SPIRITUAL UNIVERSE IF ONE OF US CAN DO SOMETHING SPECIAL .. GIVEN HEALTH AND MONEY .. WE ALL CAN SEEK THAT SPECIAL GOD-CALLING. IF CAP CAN TURN OFF THE TELEVISION SET .. IF CAP CAN GET HIS-ACT-TOGETHER .. IF CAP CAN DO WHAT-IT-TAKES TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE AND TO GET ONTO AN AIRPLANE .. IF CAP CAN SEEK OUT GOD’S WILL FOR CAP .. THEN EACH AND EVERY OTHER HUMAN BEING CAN DO THE SAME .. GIVEN HEALTH AND MONEY . I MOST CERTAINLY UNDERSTAND THAT YOU MAY NOT HAVE YOUR HEALTH NOR THE MONEY TO REGAIN YOUR HEALTH BUT IF YOU ARE TRULY SEARCHING FOR YOUR GOD-CALLING .. THE MONEY WILL BE THERE FOR YOU. YOU MAY NOT HAVE TO LEAVE YOUR OWN HOME TO FIND YOUR GOD-CALLING.

WHAT IS GOD’S WILL FOR YOU OR FOR ANYONE ELSE?

I HAVE NO IDEA WHATSOEVER ABOUT GOD’S WILL. NONE. ZERO. ZIP. DE NADA. 

WAS IT GOD’S WILL THAT A THREE-YEAR-OLD LITTLE BOY DIED WITH HIS MOTHER AND BROTHER ESCAPING FROM THEIR HOMELAND?  I WILL DIE SEEING-IN-MY-MIND’S-EYE THAT LITTLE BOY .. FACE DOWN IN THE WATER .. DRESSED OH SO NICELY .. DEAD FROM DROWNING. I WANT TO JUST BEGIN SOBBING WITH GRIEF THINKING OF THAT POOR LITTLE BOY.  IS IT GOD’S WILL WHEN THE BEAUTIFUL SWEET LITTLE GIRL IN HER SUNDAY SCHOOL DRESS GETS HIT AND KILLED BY A TRUCK ON HER WAY TO CHURCH. 

A SMALL YOUNG GIRL ASKED ONE OF THE WORLD’S MOST POWERFUL RELIGIOUS LEADERS .. “WHY ARE INNOCENT SMALL CHILDREN FORCED HELPLESSLY AGAINST-THEIR-WILL WITH NO ABILITY-TO-RESIST INTO PROSTITUTION AND LIVING LIVES OF HELL?” THAT POWERFUL MAN COULD ONLY SIGH AND SAY .. “I CAN’T ANSWER THAT QUESTION. I DO NOT KNOW.”  

LET HE WHO HAS NOT SINNED CAST THE FIRST STONE.  JUDGE NOT THAT YE NOT BE JUDGED. LOVE ONE ANOTHER. DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE OTHERS DO UNTO YOU.  IN MANY WAYS THE ANSWERS TO A HAPPY AND SUCCESSFUL LIFE  ARE WITHIN ALL OF THE WORLD’S RELIGIOUS AND / OR PHILOSOPHICAL BELIEF SYSTEMS. A GREAT INDIAN MYSTIC LIKENED LIFE TO A LARGE MULTI-SPOKED WHEEL SAYING LIFE’S ANSWERS ARE AT THE CENTER-HUB OF THE WHEEL AND THERE ARE MANY WAYS (MANY DIFFERENT SPOKES TO THE CENTER) TO FIND SUCCESS AND HAPPINESS IN LIFE. 

HOW ODD IS IT THAT NO FORCE IN HISTORY HAS CAUSED THE MILLIONS UPON MILLIONS OF DEATHS THAT RELIGIOUS BELIEFS AND ARGUMENTS ABOUT SUCH DIFFERING BELIEFS HAVE .. AND NOW THIS VERY INSTANT  ARE CAUSING.

I AM NEITHER DUMB NOR AM I STUPID. SO DON’T EVEN TRY TO DEBATE IT WITH ME.  DISCUSS IT? SURE. I HAVEN’T A CLUE AS TO THE CAUSES OF ALL OF THE MISERY SURROUNDING US. READ RABBI HAROLD KUSHNER’S BOOK .. “WHEN BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE.” 

2.  SOMETIME BACK IN NOVEMBER OR IN DECEMBER OF 1990 DURING MY FIRST EVER TRIP TO INDIA .. BECAUSE OF ALL OF THE AMAZING THINGS THAT WERE HAPPENING TO ME .. I WAS STRUCK WITH A PROFOUND SPIRITUAL TRUTH.

SOMETHING IS  HAPPENING HERE. YET WHAT IT IS AIN’T EXACTLY CLEAR.

SO WHILE I HAVE NO ANSWERS FOR ANY OF YOU I HAVE THIS FOR MYSELF ..

I AM ONLY ONE .. BUT STILL .. I AM ONE.  I CANNOT DO EVERYTHING .. BUT STILL I CAN DO SOMETHING. AND BECAUSE I CANNOT DO EVERYTHING I WILL NOT REFUSE TO DO THE SOMETHING THAT I CAN DO.  I QUOTE EDWARD EVERETT HALE .

SO LACKING ANSWERS I AM NOT GOING TO JUST SIT IDLY UPON MY HANDS WONDERING. I AM GOING TO ATTEMPT TO DO WHAT I FEEL THAT I AM BEING CALLED UPON TO DO.

WHAT IS GOD’S WILL FOR ME  .. WITH DISCERNMENT .. I BELIEVE THAT GOD’S WILL FOR ME IS THAT I DO WHAT IS IN FRONT OF ME TO BE DONE ..

WAS IT GOD’S WILL FOR ME THAT I WAS ATTACKED HERE IN ULAANBAATAR LAST JULY AT THE RAILWAY STATION BY A DRUNKEN MAN. SAID SAME DRUNKEN MAN MADE A DIRE MISTAKE. WITH MY MARTIAL ARTS TRAINING .. REACTING INSTANTLY UPON BEING TOUCHED BY HIM .. I FLIPPED HIM ONTO HIS BACK. A CROWD OF ON-LOOKERS CHEERED AND APPLAUDED AND POINTED AND LAUGHED AT HIM AS HE LOOKED BLANKLY UP AT ME FROM THE GROUND LYING FLAT UPON HIS BACK IN A PUDDLE OF WATER. EVIDENTLY HE HAD BEEN TERRORIZING THE LOCAL KIND AND GENTLE MONGOLIANS AND DECIDED TO SHOW THEM THAT HE COULD KICK-THE-STUFFING OUT OF THIS OLD MAN.  I THINK PERHAPS GOD MAY HAVE WISHED THAT I TURNED-MY-OTHER-CHEEK. MARINE CORPS STAFF SERGEANT ALOYSIUS PIGG WAS SMILING TO HIMSELF WHERE EVER HE MAY BE. MY RIGHT SHOULDER IS STILL INJURED. NO GOOD DEED GOES UNPUNISHED CAPTAIN!

TWO SHORT DAYS AGO I HAD BLAST DIARRHEA AND TERRIBLE STOMACH CRAMPS COMPLETE WITH BLOATING AND BELCHING AND I WONDERED HOW ON EARTH I WAS GOING TO GET ONTO THE PLANE TO FLY TO MONGOLIA. DON’T THINK YOUR CAPTAIN IS GETTING SOME FREE-PASS!

AND THE DINKEY BIRD IS SINGING IN THE AMFALULA TREE ..

Just in case any of you are interested .. You can click onto the below link and re-visit the JUL 20 (Post 2) writing that started me off .. I have added a great many photos and also expressed my gratitude to those who made this magnificent apartment possible for me. There is the connection to God that got me going .. In my humble opinion nothing quite this wonderful just-happens ..

http://babakaps.net/?p=13614

And?

Once again .. THANK YOU SO MUCH PATTI for helping me with these two posts ..

A Pensive Cap ..

5 thoughts on “SEP 11, 15 .. SEPTEMBER 11, 2011 .. ALSO KNOWN AS 9 / 11 ..

  1. Jeanne Follett

    You do indeed seem to be led by an unseen force, but the difference between you and others is that you follow willingly and joyfully. I am still amazed at the events that led you to the Mother House. One of my favorite sayings: Not all who wander are lost. Wander on, my friend.

    1. cap chastain

      Thank You So Much Jeanne. Jess Lair .. one of my favorite self-help authors .. wrote the below book that came to mind in your comment.

      I Don’t Know Where I’m Going But I Sure Ain’t Lost ..

      To think that Jess Lair passed away at age 73 and I sit here at age 79 still ticking gives me pause. Regarding Jess Lair and others such as Scott Peck .. my 33 years in and out of San Francisco .. especially in the 1960s and 1970s certainly were extremely important years in my life. Daily we would drive through the Haight Ashbury en route to the Sears store on Geary and Masonic.

      To think that I was personally introduced to Mother Teresa and worked with her is stunning .. That I made it to the highest levels in professional automobile racing and then .. oh-by-the-way .. I was able to serve as an enlisted member of the Marine Corps and later as a commissioned officer in the Navy CBs .. I truly have led a blessed life.

      Lastly but not in the least is the stunning fact that I .. and it truly was an amazing God event .. discovered far-before-it-was-too late .. that perhaps I had a small issue with drinking certain liquids far-to-rapidly with somewhat disastrous-effects and Captain here is where you belong and this is what you can do-about it .. will you look where that stunning revelation has taken me!! Talk about a life-changer there-you-have-it!!

      One day in October you will sit in this room at this computer here in Ulaanbaatar Mongolia. Till then .. Joy .. Cap ..

  2. Patti

    Zowie … that is what i call a very intense post! We each travel our own path … no one else has made my footprints, nor yours. There have been times in my life when I have been able to still my own racing mind and just “listen” … and wonderous things have unfolded. It is a blessing to me that our lives have meshed! Love and hugs. Patti

    1. cap chastain

      Thank You My Dear One .. I was sorely temped to do a post script replete with colored photos showing each of the words I was going to write ..

      IF you too were living on instant noodles (photo) .. popcorn (photo) .. and snickers food bars (photo) .. you too could write a post like this ..

      Smiles and Love .. A Not All That Serious .. I am what I am .. Blessed .. Cap ..

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